My Trip Down The Rabbit Hole

You know how people say there’s a soundtrack to our lives? Well this song covers a very specific time for me. This was on repeat on the way back to NY 3 weeks before moving right back here to my real home. It was when I left my husband mentally. When I made the decision and severed the last of my emotional ties. I got amped like Rocky to do some serious damage, to really start fighting back. My days of being a shrinking violet emotionally were OVER!

The parts I held onto (besides the overall angry, “Fuck You” vibe):

“Yeah, my life a bitch, but you know nothing about her
Been to hell and back, I can show you vouchers

Yeah, put a dick in their mouth, so I guess it’s “fuck what they say”
I’m high as a bitch: up, up and away
Man, I come down in a couple of days
OK, you want me up in a cage, then I’ll come out in beast mode

So you can keep knocking but won’t knock me down
No love lost, no love found

It’s a little too late to say that you’re sorry now
You kicked me when I was down
But what you say, just (don’t hurt me, don’t hurt me no more)
That’s right bitch: and I don’t need you, don’t want to see you
Bitch you get (no love)
You showed me nothing but hate
You ran me into the ground
But what comes around goes around
I don’t need you (don’t hurt me)
You (don’t hurt me no more)

I’m alive again
More alive than I have been in my whole entire life

I ain’t never giving in again
Caution to the wind, complete freedom

I’m standing on my Monopoly board
That means I’m on top of my game and it don’t stop
Til my hip don’t hop anymore
When you so good that you can’t say it
Because it ain’t even cool for you to sound cocky anymore

You can never break my stride
You never slow the momentum at any moment I’m about to blow
You’ll never take my pride

Ain’t letting up, relentless
I smell blood, I don’t give a fuck: keep giving them hell
Where was you when I fell and needed help up?
You get no love